It's my birthday

July 7 2023 · Ryan Walpole

I've been slack on the blog posts this last month or two but I promise you it's for a good reason! The truth be told, I've been busy writing another blog! Rather a digital journal from the perspective of my wild west roleplay character, Ulrich Braun. I started writing his history here on my blog but I rustled up the confidence to do one right there on the forums where other players can take a read. It's been a really interesting and fun creative outlet.

Ulrich has been having a great time too. It's been really fun playing a character that's so different to myself in so many ways. It sometimes feels like I'm living two lives though which is exhausting. I go from talking to my real life boyfriend on the phone to meeting up with Ulrich's 'boyfriend' Andy, in game.

Dan's been really supportive of it - specifically the part where I'm kind of in a fake second relationship online. I really lucked out with such a great partner. He's taking me out for dinner next week for my birthday - that expensive steak bar and grill in Bright. Score.

Speaking of, it's my birthday today. Yay. No real plans, nothing really that exciting about turning 27. Ulrich had a celebratory birthday party in the roleplay server last night for his 26th birthday. Was a lot of fun and had a good time writing a journal entry on my lunch break from his perspective about it.

What else is new? I've been making friends out of character with some of the people I play with. Zack and Beady mostly. They're good guys, real fun to talk to - bounce off of them well. I hope my autistic ass isn't making them uncomfortable or anything. I know I can be a tad much for some people. It's part of the charm.

What's Playing

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Kelly Clarkson
Chemistry

Been enjoying new Kelly Clarkson album. Some of the songs really remind me of situations I've been in recently (ironically, seeing as it's a divorce album and I'm in the most stable relationship of my life.) Some of the songs I can draw parallels to with people that have left my life, though. I'm listening to it right now. "High Road" reminds me of Viki. I'm always the one taking the high road, shutting my mouth and letting everyone get away with shit because I was always taught to value others first. I walk the high road where no one else has tread, I break my back on the shit other people have said, I'm getting tired of always trying to do my best when I don't feel it. Really resonates with me in that regard. Spent months trying to do my best, be supporitve, despite knowing I was being actively manipulated and emotionally blackmailed.

I'm picking Onyon up from the airport with Birb tomorrow. Gonna go get some nice food for dinner and make a whole thing of it I reckon.

Happy 27!