Last entry I posted I talked about how I was struggling to get rest and that I felt like I was constantly worn down to the bone. Truthfully, this seems to have worsened despite my best efforts to take a step back and try to get some relaxation. I spent a good 5 days not roleplaying or doing anything extraneous.

I went to Birb and Onyon's house on Saturday night for lasagne and then a late night nuggie run. As much as I loved it and really do enjoy going over there, especially for the spontaneous "Hey do you wanna come over? Mum's making fish pies/lasagne" moments... I couldn't wait to leave? Not that I wasn't enjoying myself, I just felt like the second I got there that I was already below empty on my social battery capacity.

By Monday afternoon I couldn't help but think.. I spent 5 days not roleplaying, not doing any weekend work... I hardly went anywhere, or did anything... why am I more tired than ever? Why am I so emotionally and physically drained? And it's not that I don't want to do things, I just feel like I simply cannot be fucked to?

It's fucking frustrating cause I'm not sure what to do. Usually I combat "I'm tired and drained" with getting rest and not doing anything, but it doesn't seem to be working. I did get a little bit of relaxation on the weekend, as I fired up Space Engineers and explored an old save. Can't believe it's been over 3 years since I last played when it feels like it was just yesterday. What's new. Time is fucked. Time is moving so fucking fast and I hardly have any time to process what's going on until it's over. I mean, five minutes ago I was playing Stardew Valley with Birb, Lakoola and Viki... right? Wrong. That entire campaign was finished, done and dusted over a year ago.